tough day.

So just a quick check in with this. So I went to work and came back and have felt so emotionally and mental drained today. It's been hard. So my ex partner has her 30th Birthday coming up, but due to my alcoholism and lies we split up but I am feeling very guilty because she says she is worried it will be a bad birthday and she isn't doing much for it and it will be as disappointing as the others she used to have before me. I had made some nice plans when drunk, she didn't know this and doesn't want to now, so I just feel guilt.

I the didn't eat well today or drunk enough water, I had a lot of coffee and that's left me on edge today, I feel so drained! I have been told at aa the importance of taking care of yourself and your diet and making sure you feel full, I can't state how important this is to anyone!!